your ailing heart and your criminal eyes

you could either be successful or be us, with our winning smiles, and us / with our catchy tunes and words - now we're photogenic, you know, we don't stand a chance.

❝The next afternoon, in Room21, in broad daylight, with the windows open and the faded curtains billowing, they laughed and cried and fucked with a joy whose gravity and innocence it fairly wrecks the autobiographer to think back on, and cried some more and fucked some more and lay next to each other with sweating bodies and full hearts and listened to the sighing of the pines. Patty felt like she’d taken some powerful drug that wasn’t wearing off, or like she’d fallen into an incredibly vivid dream that she wasn’t waking up from, except that she was fully aware, from second to second to second, that it wasn’t a drug or a dream but just life happening to her, a life with only a present and no past. a romance unlike any romance she’d imagined. Because Room21! How could she have imagined Room21? It was such a sweetly clean old-fashioned room, and Walter such a sweetly clean old-fashioned person. And she was 21 and could feel her 21ness in the young, clean, strong wind that was blowing down from Canada. Her little taste of eternity.❞
(—— Freedom - Jonathan Franzen)